Time Flies: Another Week Gone By

Not a word yet. Not even a response. I emailed a different worker today. Maybe I will hear from someone. I could pick up the phone and try to call them, but as I was thinking about that today I realized I am afraid to. I am afraid of what they are going to tell me at this point. I could be completely off base, but I picture them scurrying around trying to decide what they are going to tell me. How they are going to tell me we are not approved or how they are going to tell me “Oh, we discovered we can’t find your homestudy. It has been misplaced. We will have to rewrite it and send it again.” I will absolutely be crushed!!!
I finally got to see Mark for a little while yesterday. We just sat on the back porch swing for a while before he went to work. It was nice. He said he kind of just put the adoption on the back burner and we would hear from them eventually. That’s not so easy for me. Once I left work yesterday I was ok. Brendan can always cheer me up. He had to go to the allergist and then he finished the work day with me at the office. My thoughts after that were mostly trying to come up with something for Marks birthday today. I rack my brain every year. I want to come up with something creative, but I don’t ever have much luck. It may be easier if there were unlimited funds to do that *smile*, but there isn’t. So, I’m still thinking. I have until tomorrow since he has to work on his birthday. I will come up with something! Mark and I rarely celebrate birthdays too much anymore. I want to this year, so we will see what I can do.

One more week until school starts. Life is going to get crazy soon. I can’t believe how quickly the summer flew by. I hope I can get enrolled in school while I am in “proactive mode”. I am ready to accomplish something! Everything in my life right now seems to be in transition and waiting. I can say it’s not boring. I dislike “boring” more than “waiting” I think.

And here we are, another week has gone by. I’m looking forward to family time this weekend. I’m starting a new backyard project. After putting in our pond, that I absolutely love, we are taking it out. It attracts too many snakes and mice. So, I had to choose. Do I want a pond with snakes and mice or no pond? I think I choose no pond.

God please give me peace and patience to continue my waiting and wondering!