So, it’s Friday. Another week behind us. I am happy it’s Friday, but it’s bittersweet. I still have not heard anything from our case worker. I am beyond being impatient. I am just discouraged about it right now. At the point where I am just ready to forget about it. Don’t get me wrong, I still want to adopt but I’m ready to just erase it from my mind. When it happens it happens. Then again, I don’t want them to put us on the back burner because we are patiently waiting. It’s like waiting for a response on a job. You wonder if you should act interested and call or leave them alone. Overly anxious or not interested enough? I am upset it’s been 4 weeks longer than they said to expect, but what do you do? My hands are tied and there is nothing I can do. Very frustrating.
I was finally forced to make a decision on Allisons school. She did not get into the charter school and public school registration was Wednesday. I am not happy with the public middle school and we were down to deciding whether to homeschool this year or take a chance with the public school again. Allison and I were really stressed about it. We thought we knew homeschooling was the way to go and felt very comfortable with it, but the more we talked we ended up changing our mind about an hour before registration. Of all of my kids she is the one that NEEDS socialization. She planned on being in athletics and she is in National Junior Honor Society this year. She was excited about that. I was torn. I know we could provide just as good, if not better education at home (even working), I could save money on school uniforms, I wouldn’t worry about the “crap” that goes on in the school. I have a dear, sweet friend who homeschools and offered her help, not to mention the convenience. It was very hard for me to decide not to homeschool because that is my preference and it seemed like a "given" to me, but ultimately we decided to give public a try again. She is just at such a critical point being in 8th grade. She will enter high school next year and middle school was my real concern. We can always withdraw her this year if needed. It’s going to be a crazy year with all three kids going to different schools again and Brendan at a new school with new kids, teachers, etc. We will need prayers. I stress about these decisions and pray I make the right ones.
I messed up my application for financial aid to go back to school myself so I have to wait for a form in the mail before I can proceed with that. I’m looking forward to that.
I had an appointment with my dermatologist yesterday and had a spot removed to biopsy. I think it will be ok, but it’s always scary. Especially when you lay out with baby oil and iodine on your roof when you are a teenager LOL. I go back to the doctor August 19. I went in for my face breaking out and decided to have him look at a spot I noticed. I have seen 2 different dermatologists before and this one was easier to get in to see. I saw him SIX years ago. I was surprised he was still in practice because he is OLD! He was old six years ago! When I showed him the spot he decided to remove it. RIGHT THEN! I was thinking I would have to come back or something. I had no preparation. He pulled out the needle and scissors and before I had time to think his shaky hand is ready to poke the needle under the skin in my neck!! I have had a spot removed before, but not by him. He is OLD!! I was nervous! He shakily stuck me with the needle and immediately grabbed his SCISSORS to cut the spot out. I thought he didn’t even give it time to numb, but luckily I didn’t feel a thing! He snipped it right off. Seemed so routine for him. It happened so quick with little time for me to think about it. He asked lots of questions that seemed irrelevant to me. You wonder if its small talk or important stuff. He asked if my husband was healthy, if my kids were all healthy. I’m thinking WHY??? does that matter ? Is he going to have to be healthy to take care of them when you tell me I have skin cancer???? LOL *sigh* That’s me and my thinking, typical! Anyway, hopefully everything comes back fine there!
Good news is they are talking at work like Mark will get his day schedule back at the end of this month! I am praying that happens! I will feel married again! It was nice having him around. We were finally learning to function like a family after years of night schedules.
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