Remembering Peace

Although I didn’t sleep well again, I feel like I woke up in a little better mood this morning. I think going home early yesterday helped because I wasn’t sitting in front of my computer just waiting for an email from the case worker. I find myself just sitting here waiting for an incoming message and hoping it’s from her. Lately I have struggled being at work and I now think that is why. I drive myself crazy all day waiting for email then I am disappointed at the end of the day when I don’t get the one I’m waiting on. I have to constantly remind myself to picture "peace". I saw this picture and it is so true! Isn't it such a peaceful feeling to hold a sleeping child. I miss rocking my babies to sleep!
I decided to be proactive today. I emailed her first thing this morning and asked if she heard anything yet. It was Tuesday when she said she would check and let me know. Its Thursday now, I think that is pretty patient to give her until today. I haven’t hounded her at all. It’s already lunch time and she has not responded. Plus, going to church last night helped as well. I find peace at church. Like I said in a previous post I could sit in silence, alone at church for a very long time. I got to spend quality time with my two oldest. There was no youth service last night. We had a special speaker on Discipleship. The very first thing the speaker started out saying was he was originally from Fort Worth. He was born at an Adoption Agency and adopted at 2 weeks old. Guess what? It was the very same agency we are using………….AGAIN. If you read my posts regularly you know this has happened to me more than one time. Is that coincidence? Hmmm? Before we decided to adopt I never ran into anyone that I can remember that was associated with that agency!

I have hardly seen or spoken to Mark this week. He is coming when I am going and vice versa. It’s hard and maybe part of the reason subconsciously I have been “down” lately. This is a journey we are on together and we haven’t been “together” much. I can’t wait till he goes back to the day schedule. He has some extra incentive to nudge his boss because he was asked to play hockey on a team on Friday nights. If you know Mark, IT’S HOCKEY, he will make sure he can be there. I figured my complaining was enough, but I guess he needed an extra incentive LOL. I am glad he gets to play again. It’s been years and it’s something he loves. Plus it’s a Friday night so me and the kids might actually get to go this time!
Well, I have gotten a few emails since I started this post, but not from the case worker *sigh*. It will be ok, right? Right. Hope everyone has had a good week. I will update with any news.