Living In a Lonely World

I got an email back today on the girl I inquired about in Florida. Right now I just want to cry. I am so sad for this child. She is so beautiful, sweet and shy looking. She has long dirty blonde hair with a big white bow and white dress on. She has brown eyes and glasses. She really looks like an angel. The case worker told me she has possible schizophrenia! Looks can be deceiving. It makes me so sad for her. That has got to be internal torture. Living inside her own lonely world. What caused it? Was it her circumstances or heredity? Did someone do this to her? She has already had one adoption disruption, which means the family that was going to adopt her said they couldn’t handle it. What a horrible life that poor baby has had to deal with. On top of her mental illness, no one wants her. It breaks my heart. I want to take her and “fix” it. Then I have to humble myself and think what makes me think I can do anything different than anyone else has? I would love to. The challenge doesn’t scare me, but could I? Probably not. Does she even want to be loved? I should have been a case worker. That line of work attracts me and I have a true passion to want to learn and help those kids. The ones that, in reality, I can’t take on at home. I guess what I can do is pray for her. People with schizophrenia can control it with medication and live normally. Hopefully she can find the right family with experience in dealing with the illness where she can live normal, happy, loved, and get the long term help and care she needs. If you pray, please pray for Brianna.