Finding Peace

I have prayed for peace a lot lately. When one thing consumes your heart and mind it takes a toll. It’s exhausting and you start to “forget” about other things and lose focus on everything else. I was getting exhausted from thinking and imagining and being excited. Adoption is such an emotional roller coaster. It’s very tiring. God has answered my prayers and I have found some peace. I am sleeping better and He opened my eyes to the fact I still have a wonderful husband and three beautiful kids. I never forgot they were there, my thoughts were just consumed with the new journey in our lives. I apologized to them. Of course I still think of the adoption, we still talk about it and are still anxious about it, but I have enjoyed my time with my family more and have given the frustrations and impatience to God. I know I will still have times that I have those feelings, but it’s amazing to me that God never gives us more than we can handle at one time. He knew I needed peace right now. I am so blessed to have a husband who understands and loves me regardless. I gave the boys haircuts last night and Nick and I had a bit of the evening to ourselves which doesn’t happen often. He makes me laugh and has such a great personality. I love my time with him when we can laugh and connect. The other two went Halloween shopping with Mark. They all three love Halloween and had a great time. Of course my sweet little girl wants all the gory, bloody scars and cuts to make herself scary. She wants to scare everyone on our annual Halloween camping trip. Brendan sticks to his Star Wars theme. So…………… great father/daughter time when Mark gets to apply all the horror to his daughter! LOL…………..gotta love it!

There is an adoption radio program on the radio this afternoon that I am anxious to listen to. I have made a few contacts with other adoptive parents on facebook lately as well. It is helpful to talk to others going thru the same thing. I think the hardest thing about the waiting is the lack of contact, but I am searching for ways to deal with that and common contacts is one way that helps. I think once you are able to let go and put it all in God’s hands is when you get the call. It’s easier said than done, but I’m getting there!