Wednesday, July 22, 2009

So Close........................!

It’s been 7 months since we started the adoption process. It’s funny how the time frame has been similar to a natural pregnancy. I am expecting it to last about 9 months. Its 9 months of stress, excitement, anxiousness and sacrifice either way! I just don’t get the daily reminders with the heartburn, or the baby’s movements, or the doctor’s appointments that we are expecting a new child. Being pregnant was so enjoyable for me (except the heartburn) and I am so thankful I got to experience it THREE times! I would do it many more if I could. I feel a deep sadness for women that are not able to experience that. Although I miss that experience I know that there will be just as much joy, rewards and fulfillment with the adoption. It will just come in a different form. There are a lot of unknowns when you are pregnant, but so much more when you are adopting. I can’t even guess what age our child will be at this point!
I talked to Allison last night and was asked today where we are at in the adoption. When I explained to Allison we are just waiting on a phone call or email that could be any day now I got a smile out of her and I think we both realized at that time how REAL and how CLOSE we are. I can’t believe we are actually almost there, doing something I just talked about for so long. I have even had several others that have asked me about the process which makes me happy that others are considering it. Don’t be discouraged because of cost or time or trouble. It’s something anyone can do! I am so anxious now. You know those last few days before your due date? That’s how I feel right now. I will be devastated if we are not approved!
I saw in the news today about those “people” that locked their children in the closet for over a year in a motel with little to no food and it just makes me sick. Just imagine, a child that has been through that, trying to function in a “normal” environment. It’s just disgusting that anyone would do that to a child. Imagine their fear, lack of trust, their fear of not getting fed from now on, that when they do eat it could be their last time. It takes a long time to regain that trust in adults. I am glad these kids get another chance. Thank God someone stepped up! I understand they are in severe medical condition. I pray they survive and are given a chance to see a normal life and bounce back. Until Mark and I took our parenting class for adoption I didn’t realize the extent of how those situations affect children. We can’t even imagine. I knew, of course, it affected them negatively, but didn’t realize the extent. It’s so sad. Ok, so, enough of that, it just makes me too angry.
Happy thoughts………………….. our case worker is back from vacation today. I hope we hear something today or tomorrow! We are READY!!!!!!! I know adoption is not for everyone, but if you have ever had the idea placed on your heart please ask us about it! There were couples of all ages in our group ready to adopt. There are many older children, good kids that don’t get adopted, that just need someone to give them a chance. Depending on how this goes for us we may consider that too once our own kids are grown! We will see how it goes.

2 comments:

  1. Do you know you are my idol????? Love you guys!!!

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  2. AWE! Thank you!!! I don't know if I deserve THAT compliment :)
    We love yall too!!!!

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