Just an Update...... Its a New Week, I Keep Moving, Waiting to See Whats Next!!

I don’t know how everyone else feels about Craigslist but I love it!!! We went to find new bedroom furniture for Allison so her bedroom would be ready for a sister. Hopefully we aren’t jumping the gun there! I moved all of her old furniture out and took a picture of it. I posted it on Craigslist and had it SOLD within the hour at 10p.m. at night!! So, the old furniture was gone before the new furniture got there and only had to sit in my living room through the night! I was so excited! It’s almost addictive. I am looking for what I can sell next LOL. Of course, you get junk on there too. We didn’t have much luck with giving our boxer away, but the chickens and the furniture were gone within minutes. It’s only practical for the big items, but it beats a garage sale if you don’t have a lot of other things to get rid of.
So, now we are really ready! We are just waiting on the case worker to contact us. Lately I have been going back through my mind thinking of all of the things I should or shouldn’t have said during our home-study. Not much I can do at this point though. I just hope I didn’t let it show that I have too high expectations, because you can’t with these kids. I do with my own, of course, because I know they are capable. It’s going to be hard for me to have NO expectations for an adopted child, but you can’t. The agency even said right off the bat if you have any expectations from these kids you need to rethink. I can do it, but it will be a challenge. I also don’t want the accomplishments of my own children to discourage the other. It is going to be an area I will have to tread lightly and find a balance. I’m sure as time goes by you can develop expectations, but in the beginning it’s just the simple stuff.
I missed church this week which was disappointing. It seems I don’t have time to take a breath lately. In my last post I talked about Mark and his eye incident. This week it was Nick. He has always had lots of trouble with ear infections and had a tube put in one ear at 14 years old. The doctor said that is almost unheard of these days. Anyway, he got a bad ear ache in the other ear and we were at the doctor on Saturday. I can’t relate to it, but I know the pain has to be intense. Poor thing was in so much pain and I did all I knew to do. The doc wanted to see him first thing and of course she told me what I was doing was good and to continue, ARRGH!! The only thing was our medicine drops were expired so we got a new prescription. Nick asked why I didn’t become a doctor!! LOL….. Boy, how I wish I would have! That is one reason my expectations as far as school and grades are so high for them. I can look back now and see how just a little bit of hard work for a short period of time in my life could have made a lifetime of difference. I know they don’t see that now, but I feel like that part of my life is a big failure. I could have done so much more. My dream was to stay home and be a mom, but someone else had other plans. Now I regret not accomplishing more. But it is what it is for a reason, right?
Maybe I’m going to win the lottery, Yeah! That might happen if I ever start playing!