Letting Go

Our homestudy is tomorrow. After that I anticipate time to start moving in slow motion. I feel unusually relaxed about it for some reason. I saw the cutest little chubby girl at lunch today and it brought all the excitement back again.
Besides that, my daughter will be a teenager Friday. I can’t believe it! And to think I want to do this again! That’s the scary part. I couldn’t ask for a better daughter. She is smart, funny, ambitious and beautiful along with all the teenage-girl hormones that come with that. I love her more than she can imagine.
My baby leaves for his first church camp Friday. I think that is stressing me out more than the homestudy! I am a natural worrier anyway and I recognize that. But I am letting him go and encouraging him to have fun although it is killing me! Pray for him and me for those 5 long days! Its quite a big step for him and probably a bigger one for Mom! Sending him on that bus is going to be so hard. Harder than the first day of school!
And lastly, my oldest. I struggle the most with this one. Not him in particular, just the age and interests. I feel like I never see him even though we are in the same house. I know this is typical but very hard for me to deal with. I feel like I should be doing something. Like I am failing. Life is such a learning process and I wish I had all the answers. I guess we have done ok. He makes awesome grades and is a good kid. I just have to learn to let go and not worry so much. Is that possible for a mom?
Mark has gone back to work and just as I suspected would happen they want him to go back to 3rd shift. This is NOT good. We have done it for years but it is very hard to function as a family on that schedule. He will leave for work when we go to bed and get home in the morning when we leave. It was so nice having him home and not only are we getting used to him going back to work, he will be on nights again too. I don’t think a person’s body ever adjusts to that no matter how long you do it. Poor Mark has been doing it a long time! I saw it wear on him and going to days was a major positive change in our life. Hopefully this is temporary. I will pray it is.
I think we found a home for our boxer. A friend and neighbor three doors down took her. They have had her a week and have not brought her back so that is a good sign. We miss her terribly but know this is best for her and us. The plus is that she is down the street so we can visit! I couldn’t ask for a better outcome for that.
Well, I will update after the homestudy.
Thank you all for supporting us!