Whats That Emotion Called?

Its official! My last piece of paper to complete our file was emailed this morning. I haven't gotten a response yet but hopefully it won't be long!

That was how I started this post on Friday. Today is Tuesday and I should probably start over. What is the emotion beyond frustration? Like the girl in the previous post picture, x4? Thats what today is. And that first sentence about emailing my last form.................... so I thought. I did finally get that response I was waiting for and it was something like this........ "WONDERFUL, I have the TB test, now all I need is the Physician Form to get you ready for Homestudy".... This is where I cry.
Seems there was a form I never got and to make it worse, it involves the doctor. ANOTHER form saying we are healthly and to the best of our knowledge, not dying. A form saying our doctor feels we would make good parents. How would they know anyway????? Our friends and family have already provided statements. Aren't they a better source? I am told the same thing again "its a STATE requirement, no way around it". *sigh* If you have kept up at all you know my doctor has not made this an easy process. I am at one of those points where I just want to say FORGET IT! I don't want to deal with the doctor, the phone calls, the appointments, the waiting or trying to depend on someone else to fill out a piece of paper and return it to the adoption agency. They aren't in any hurry. I am not one known for patience either. :). Ask anyone.
Mark tries to be sympathetic. He doesn't get as frustrated as I do. I wish I was just calm and easy going all the time, but when its something I really want, its hard for me.
So, here we are, I am posting an update waiting for the office manager at the doctors office to call me back to see if there is an easy, fast way to handle this without having to go through the whole routine of an appointment again. I also let the adoption agency know my frustration x4 (whatever emotion that is) and hopefully I haven't made everyone at the agency so mad that they send me home with some devil spawn child! You almost feel like you have to be on your best behavior and get them to adore you. But I also feel like they should have made SURE that I had everything to complete our file before when I asked (many times). Its only taken us FOUR MONTHS to get to this point. Am I being unfair to be a little irritated and impatient at this point? Oh well, now they know the 'real' me..... hope it doesn't bite me in the butt. I wonder if I will even get that call back from the doctors office???