Cherish the Moment

I'm a new aunt today!!! My brother's baby girl, Jayden, was born today! I have only seen a little picture on my phone but hope to see her soon. I love babies! As much as I think I want another one sometimes I know after being around one long enough that I have outgrown that part of my life. I wish I could go back to that point sometimes. I don't think many of us truly enjoy that moment in our lives as much as we should. I know I wish I would have cherished the moment more. I was so worried about doing things right, getting sleep, sharing my time, my food and having patience. Having my life revolve around someone else's. Doing things when and where they wanted to, not when and where I wanted to. I admit, I was selfish. I was young. I regret it, but thats part of life. Growing and learning. My kids turned out great despite my selfishness. Thank God! I try to make up for it now. I put aside my own wants sometimes to make them a priority. One day I will have all the time in the world for myself! Its not like they are grown yet, but they don't depend on me quite as much as they used to. It goes by way too fast! It will be a challenge for me to learn to do things for me again. I know that I have to eventually. That too, is part of life. And its a healthy part of life. One that will take some getting used to for me.

My life right now is being a mom :). To me its the best part of life. Being an aunt is pretty cool too!

The excitement is building again. I got the email, OFFICIAL this time, our file is COMPLETE. We have been assigned a case worker and she will be contacting us to schedule our home study. This is the LAST step! I will keep you posted!! Its been such a roller coaster of emotion from thinking WHAT am I doing?? to being so excited and knowing its exactly what we want to do. I know in my heart that we can do this, but there are days I am tired and worn and feel REALLY old and just don't want to do it. Thats the selfish, lazy part of me I guess. I know the results, waiting and work will be so rewarding in the end. We just have to stay on track. Thanks to those who support us! We really, really need it. As part of our family and friends you are assisting us in this ministry. God planted the seed and will also place the perfect match with our family. He will make it happen. It may only be one or two children we are able to make a difference for, but it is worth it. God made a difference in our lives! Its a chance to offer the same to a child that may not know any other way. All of you are a part of this just as you are part of our lives. We can't do it without you. We love you all!